Purely Random

2010-04-16T02:22:00.001-07:00

Well, it looks like this site is dead.

NEVERTHELESS!

Be sure to visit :D

mylittletrauma.blogspot.com

I don't even know why I do this anymore.

2009-12-20T22:36:00.000-08:00

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2009-08-24T06:00:00.000-07:00

Roflball!

I'm fukken screwed!

:P

Subatomic Otaku post!

2009-08-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

Anime #1...

HAH! FOOLED YOU THERE!

Weekend. Madness?!

2009-08-16T04:51:00.000-07:00

LOLOLROFLROFL

FOA was kickass, well only the second half, but then again the audience seemed to be happy with what they got on the second half. Having Janan act as godzilla was retarded. Then again having him tango with the "Sphinx" was... I'm sure half the IB guys wished they were Janan.

MAYBE.

Then came the late night 11 indecisive outing!
Which consisted of around 40++ people in black waltzing through the streets.
Which meant we almost got arrested.

Which kinda explained the looks from the police officers when we jaywalked right in front of the police post.

:)Went to Crystal Jade at Holland. Our whole table either disappeared to BK, or felt cheapo, and we ordered 6 bowls of $2 plain noodles in the end! Ahh, tantalizing taste of soup and 3 strands of vegetables.

Then we decided to go to BK too, it was closed.
HUNGRYYYYY :((

Went home at around 1.20, slept

Woke up, tuition

Then went to the Toy and Comic Convention with my parents, which... was an odd experience.

Bought a nice T shirt courtesy of my Dad.

Then my mom and sis went to watch the cosplay, which by some luck was on anime.

Bleh.

CAMWHORE TIME!

Bored.

2009-08-12T07:20:00.000-07:00

Well I'm bored, and I have a blog!

Noticed some people seem damn ego over some very stupid and unimportant things. And some people seem elitist over others. Meh those people have very very idiotic lives.

Or those people are just plain stupid.

Bleh, either way it works out into a nice ball of retard*dedism. Ready to be kicked out by life.

Hope the tree of life prunes you guys faster. :)

Or just cause you to be impotent so you guys cant reproduce and create more people like euuuuu!

I mean like you guys don't even believe in unicorns.

Odd Music Taste.

2009-08-11T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hnn.I notice that my music taste has changed drastically over time.

The first major change was my subtle addiction to trance and techno, but it was limited to classy club-remixes and heavy drum and bass.

Then came the short fling with electronic remixes, such as Gorillaz, Moby and Beastie Boys.

Then it evolved to happy-trance, mainly techno set at a high speed with insane amounts of useless notes and major chords thrust in.

Then slowly it evolved to softcore techno, or "girly techno" as I once told some people.

Now its become so bad that I'm listening to Perfume, a Japanese Electronic-Disco troupe whos songs send very... odd vibes down my spine. Basically the band just makes tunes. They're catchy, but there's barely any vocal talent to showcase anyway. Just bits of 8-bit and techno sounds. No direction, maybe a little harmony. I don't even understand a thing they're saying anyway. So basically its catchy sound. Hnn interesting.

The thing is maybe I like things that have no meaning in them.
Maybe I like music that numbs the brain.
Maybe, just maybe, I'm part of the minority that likes this type of music.

Maaaaaybe.

Oh look, death metal!

What I do in school

2009-08-04T22:05:00.000-07:00

I just noticed how irritating unicorns are in school.

Demons of death, Unicorn power.

(Unicycle + Acorn)

Doesn't that make a unicorn AND a Acycle or something.

Sigh blogging in school shows how my self esteem is limited to ranting over the net.

GRAMMAR ISSUE

All I want is people to just play more in class and let me sleep.

Do My job.

I want to play FISH A FISH!

:D

2x3.4, O_O

ESSPLODEKEKJEFJEWFSLJWF!!!

There are approximately 3 ways to interpret that word.

Boy am I bored

Dey shud rlly blok Blogger.

GAAAH.

I AM THE ETERNAL SLAVE TO THEM UNICRONS.

I LIEK MUDKIPZ.

AAAAGH

SPARE MY SOUL.

SAVE MY SOUL

2009-08-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

Hoho, this is getting retarded.

So many ideas, just so little updates eh?

Well one nice update would be that I'm getting stalked by my recruits.

SAVE MY SOUL.

Been doing nothing much.

Nothing much, really

Wasting my life staring at the computer, doing this.

This.

I can hear an echo in here o_o. Is that a cricket?

Oh look a unicorn

Save my soul.

EEEEEE!!!

Ranting to the clouds.

2009-07-28T05:25:00.000-07:00

Come, my friend.

The otherworld awaits us.

May the 98 suns save our souls,
The galactic cross preserve our sanity.

Dance with me in the fields of grey,
The murky waters of despair.

For that is the otherworld

Would you save me from my madness?

I doubt you would.

Twitchy fingers, scarred bullets...

Reduce them all to nothing.

Leave the dust to fly in lazy, beautiful circles.

Unforgivable!

2009-07-20T05:21:00.000-07:00

heh, blogger seems to be screwed up on my com, so I'm typing this out on a tiny little box kindly provided at the bottom left hand corner of the window.

Don't really have much to say,

I CAN HAS CHEZBHUHGER NAOO?

2009-07-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

Bleh, didn't feel very well today. Even though it was quite a fun day.

Bag broke into 2 pieces.
Watch broke into 2 pieces.

Dissected a sheep or goat's heart into 3 slices (actually 2 was needed,but me and Joseph were 'scalpel-happy' so we made a deep gash) Never before have I felt so sadistic in my life.

On second thoughts I take that back.

Now, sitting here at 12 am in the morning,

I'm thinking.

Why the eff am I doing this now when I can be lying awake on a bed?

Good choice subconscience.

The Darkness

2009-07-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

I've been looking around, and I found out everyone thinks the darkness is your enemy.

Why? It's just so cliche.

Why is it that when we fear something it automatically becomes our enemy.

The villain is always associated with darkness

The heroes always try to banish the darkness

In my opinion, darkness is not your enemy.

I mean like, if God had meant to put something here just to be made into a common degenerate, then he would have just scrapped the idea.

To me darkness is something that allows you to embrace the light more.
Darkness embraces us for the fact that light will have to come through.
Darkness guides us towards the light.

Darkness exists only to show the full glory of the righteous.
If there is no dark, no one would know what light is anyway.

Darkness is here to test us,
Here to let us reflect on what we've done.

I mean, no one seems to recognise that Darkness and Light were meant to be embraced in the same ways.

But it's still undoubted that darkness can represent the true evil.

Hell,
Death,
The Devil

But then, is it not up to a human to make the choice though his own actions?

So the question is,

What is your darkness?

Reminisence

2009-07-12T00:37:00.000-07:00

When you think back on who you are 2 years ago

Do you get a sad sense of guilt?

I do.

Why?

I dunno.

Is it because you changed into someone you don't want to be?

Not really.

Why...

2009-07-11T03:31:00.000-07:00

Why oh why does it have to sound so imba.

D;

2009-07-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

Syf presentation yesterday wasn't exactly as bad as we thought it was.

Kickass whoop!

Solo was short, but I was there.

Maybe :D

Some say standard dropped from the last 2 year's presentation, and I kinda have to agree,

Still, performance was okay.

To further glory,

And 2011 syf will probably be something I wouldn't wanna talk about :D

ACS Symphonic Band ftw!!

2009-07-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

Stage fright for my first solo performance against so many people tomorrow!
Okay, so I'm not soloing the whole song, but ya I do have solos.

QQ

I don't get the source of my fear.

Heh, this might be related to the "Scare Chills" I had last term

Gah I have one screwed up mind.

Today was one big waste of time
Waste.
Time.
of?

Would standing in the Esplanade bus bay for @!#!$#!!! over one and a half hours just doing nothing, waiting for the people with our stage passes to @!#!@#!!! show up. Gosh, I mean like, why didn't we even have passes in the first place?!

And we got scolded for talking loud in the bus bay, and receiving instructions slowly. Yeah right. Don't screw with the passes and this won't even happen.

Stupid.

whee still have stage fright

Actually it IS quite thrilling

Unicorn! (a unicycle + and acorn. Precipitation method)

2009-07-06T03:08:00.000-07:00

Saving the blog on the brink of death!

Hold Y to revive

Lets have another go at this,
Well you see, life proposed something to me not long ago
It was called procrastination, and urm, planning,
Prioritizing,
Deconstruction,
Restriction,
Imagina- Formation,

Dance the flamingo to revive

Hnn.

Deep notions,
Wordplay,
Irrelevance,
Coherence,
Babble,

Insert 10 coins to revive.
Now bang your head on the console.
Insert 10 coins to revive.

Ethereal, Real

And the whole Unreal

You see? While your brain tricks you to think these words make sense, I'm sitting down watching some idiots try to blow their brains off. Or watch some idiots blow their own brains off.

Whatever

Hold Y to revive
Hold X to revive
Hold LR to revive
Hold RL to revive
Hold all buttons on the controller to revive
Insert 10 coins to revive
Try inserting the coins while holding the buttons, fool

Hold Y to revive
Hol-

2009-06-21T07:38:00.000-07:00

Happeh Father's Day Dad.

"My Father Is a Better Snipeh than j00."

Live long and prosper.

2009-06-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

In lieu of the boredom of the holidays, we'll have the Most Random Song Awards!

Number 1,Twister by SAWA

Reason for nomination : Are you kidding? Have you heard the lyrics? You have?! LIES! Look, even the Artist name is like... Wrong or something.

Number 2, Intergalactic by Beastie Boys

Reason for nomination : Awesome video. A group of construction workers dancing and being "gansta" on the streets of "Tokyo", a giant robot, idiot scientists, big bad monster, cheap production. Why not? Besides, the rap has nothing to do with RobottuBattleru!

Number 3, Amerika by Rammstein

Reason for nomination : Germans, Space, Metal and Amerika. Noone else can pull this off. I think. Coca Cola, Sometimes war, we're all living in Amerika....

Number 4, Shonen Young by Denki Groove

Reason for nomination : Young boys singing along. Yay. So fugging freaked up. And to think this is filmed in the 2oth century, around 2002 or so. I lost all sense of purpose after the young girl, or boy, or whatever, SMGed the whole room.

Post your votes now! How? I HAVEN'T THE FOGGIEST

2009-06-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

Dagger in my heart,

Will you take the pain away?

How uncouth.

2009-05-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

I noticed my blog is actually quite uncouth

Well I say butterfly the people who need the sweet-smelling politeness

Twirl their FlowerPetals with a large big steel rod, so that the butterflying happiness will spurt out their cute bleeding FlowerPetals

Yeah yeah I know that still means something bad

But I say you Hiccup yourself with a large primeval wooden stick, and swirl the Milkshake till more Candy comes out of your bleeding Happy Unicorn.

Butterfly you too, you sad sad TrainConductor

On second thought I'll just stop using swear words

Hohoho

2009-05-22T23:31:00.001-07:00

Wheee band is back,

AND WE'RE PLAYING FOR SYF PRESENTATION!

Which either means we're one of the top three, or we bribed some judge (*cough* Kelly Tang *cough*)

Speaking of band, reminds me of how retarded my section is

Me : Fine la, pon band so much that leave me to solo the whole of SYF
Je Sern : No la, I was there
Me : My ass
Je Sern : I was there in spirit
Me: Yeah yeah sure...
Je Sern : I was there weaving your tone into the music
Me : ....
Je Sern : I was there moving your fingers
Me : Uhh what the hell?
*Awkward Silence*
Je Sern : I posess you

And as quoted " Idiots make fine meat"

POKEEEMOOOOON!!!

2009-05-20T02:15:00.000-07:00

Young CAS Whore practicing for the near future

CAS Whore

Class : Minor Whore

Type : Whore

Level : 16

Rarity : ++

Found in : Troublesome Forest, This Pond Looks Abit Too Deep, IBCity and Thats Quite A High Tower Tower

Evolves to : 45 Point Whore

Description : The CAS Whore lives in both urban and suburban areas, living just to fulfill their CAS hour quota by any sad means possible. Most CAS Whores have been seen running wild, offering odd services, such as cleaning, entertaining or even tuition, just to have their unknown mentors sign an odd crumpled piece of paper clutched tightly in each CAS Whore's hand. Tests have shown when the CAS Whore has been relieved of its paper it will slowly break down, eventually crumpling into one sobbing mass and imploding, leaving the cleaners to curse humanity for red-on-white stains. Scientists have been studying the CAS Whore's mysterious behaviour, observing that the CAS Whore will feel minor satisfaction when clocking in even the least minute, but suddenly twists to a mad rage for more CAS hours. Scientists have tried tests to free these CAS Whore from their addiction to CAS hours, with tests comprising of cold turkey to forcing a bag of pot up their noses, but results have led most CAS Whores to death or even 4th degree cases of insanity. The CAS Whore is well known for its desperate attacks, such as Beg, Whore, and Anythingittakes. Authorities have listed CAS Whores under a danger level of "Could ignore this shit until it gets irritating". No reports of CAS Whores actually injuring humans have been filed, though CAS Whores seem to percieve themselves a greater than the human race. Studies have shown to contradict this statement, as a CAS Whore can be quickly brought to its heels by dangling a signed CAS form right in its face.

Not to be confused with : CAS Witch, Insane Mugger, Mugger, CIP Whore, Teacher's Pet, Teacher's "Pet", and Teachers' Pet, Whores, Enthukia, Zombie Dogs

Known Attacks : Beg, Anythingittakes, Whore, Tackle - Fall down, Punch - Miss and Implode

50th Blogpost!

2009-05-19T02:23:00.000-07:00

Whee!

50 blog posts of sidetracking and here we are back ...
Here

So I figure why not post the 50th post in lieu of tradition

Late, Awfully off topic, and awesomely when noone Expects It

So, what to post

Black Hole Sun , Won't You Come

Well lets just summarize whatever I did this whole month or so.

MID  皃燶癅鴢睠!!! YEAR EXAMS (Yes those are random Chinese words)
One whole month of mugging like a sad fag just to realize that you're screwed anyway

Neon Genesis Evangelion!
One whole mind-blowing paradox of wtf. Enjoy your philosophical ending, and you'll know you need a new life to destroy

WoT Dota!
FUCKEN NUBZ

Not WoT Dota!
FUCKEN PROZ

Staring at my ceiling whenever anyone asks whats up

Random Albums of Songs illegally or legally brought for my listening pleasure

Evolving , or devolving to me, from mild techno slowly to Eurotrance
Then from slow rock to death metal
Then from R&B to... more R&B
Blargh

From "HihiHappy!" to "I want to eat a murder."
From "Sexinabox!" to "Sexunder/over/around/withabox!"

From diminishing my inner demons (all 9 of them)
To some idiot re summoning them and merging them into one entity in my mind

From coming close to accepting useless maths into my life
To throwing back the textbook right on the table

Unexpected twists in my plotline
Unexpected breakthroughs in my life

Happy 50th blogpost day!
Just like kick-the-balls-of-any-drama-member-day and wedgie-a-scout-day

....

Uh oh

2009-05-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

Been doing noting lately.

which is bad

Exams are coming soon

the battle between humanity and insanity

Joy joy joy

been catching up on some music I've missed out

Kingdom Hearts has an excellent score

though the Fate/Stay Night score was unexpectedly less powerful than it felt before

Utada Hikaru's newest english album, This Is The One, does better than her first album, Exodus, but still not quite there as compared to her Japanese ones.

Gorrilaz Demon Days just seems to blow my mind, in a sort of positive way

and then we musn't forget good old techno

Dum dee dum, surdsindicesandkinglouisXVI

Good luck guys,

Hope you don't snap like I did

abiggerandmoreepicdisasterinthemaking

2009-04-28T05:29:00.000-07:00

abiggerandmoreepicdisasterinthemaking.blogspot.com

Apparently Zong and Sheep have made a new blog.

Go check it out.

Normally I'd be a little more supportive.

But

Well I for one feel the name is a tad an insult to me , if not Dornel too.

Though I love the content. Maybe. Maybe not.
Funny can lead to disaster.

People making shared blogs nowadays are increasing in numbers eh?

-.-

I don't really know what to say though.

I'm in such a bad mood that if anyone was here I'd rip their heads off, take a picture, and enter it in an art competition. Yet I feel happy. In a sort of hollow way.

Guess my emotions don't count here

Good luck guys.

growl.

2009-04-28T05:14:00.000-07:00

You know I'd really really like a lot more people if they weren't so ****ing bat-shit insane

:D

Today, three days before labour day, is officially known as kick-the-balls-of-any-drama-member-day.

congrats to all you idiots who found out.

Or just blame me and Lam for our bad aims.

Damn you Dornel.

Still, tomorrow's two days before labour day. Meh, I'll think of something.

Oh and I love mugging.
Sure I do.
I practically LOL'D at the bio textbook, at the confusing diagrams of placing a label and a persons head, saying "Head"

btw. http://abiggerandmoreepicdisasterinthemaking.blogspot.com/!

-.-

I don't know what to say

I am amused yet I am just plain pissed

I want to eat a murder.

2009-04-27T07:25:00.000-07:00

I LOL'D

[v] are all Rockstars!

Someone buy me a sitar =((

Moderately owned -edit-

2009-04-19T01:43:00.000-07:00

If I'm not wrong I think they're prolly in JC
Or they look like it
Q.Q

-edit- Though the oboe girl played solo moderately well, just a bit of stuck notes and late timing here and there, but hey she looks hawt XD
2 horns effectively pwned our whole band's horn section -edit-
Though brass was cracking alot... still alright in terms of intonation Q.Q

Actually all I admire is the oboe, how she kept on playing even though she knew she f*cked up. Let's try to aim to beat this band or something

Go spanish people!

We really need to improve

TT.TT

2009-04-15T02:32:00.001-07:00

It's about time I started updating

Well lets recap whatever happened 5 days ago

Friday, Last
Went out with the usual gang of people. Watched the knowing. Me and Zong basically went "WTF COOL" at every "death scene" while Sheep seemed to cringe. Hmm, I think somethings wrong with me.
Went LANning after that. Booked that kewl but useless private room at lido. Costed my already-empty pockets to burn another wide but ignorable hole. Played games I rarely play, like COD and L4D, cept for the odd game of dota to screw our eyeballs back in.

Saturday-Sunday, Last
Did basically what would amount to "a sloth licking its fingernails while lying on a tree waiting to be shot". I found out that Moeblobbiness has been spreading around the SMT community, which made me cringe. Then again, I'm not surprised.

Monday, This
Came back as usual, got bombarded by insane amounts of work. Played a few rounds of Dota and some minutes of SMT before giving up.

Tuesday, This
Went for recruit practice. Finally rising up as someone to be respected in the recruit band. Found out the recruit band seriously has enough power as an elephant to bleed the normal human ear. Found out my oh-so-happy section is seriously retarded (awesome!), but also found out that they are seriously lagging behind. Went back, got scolded for slamming doors.

Wednesday, Present
Most awesome bio prac I have ever had in my life. Angeline didn't come, so we had Wee Wei Wen as our prac coordinator, which resulted in me whoring the methyline blue and nail varnish we had to use to "coat" the leaves. Took the nail varnish and started painting my nails one by one, and I even bothered to redo two nails. Went through my whole left hand and stopped at my thumb when I dropped methyline blue on my thumbnail. Didn't bother about it much, so I left it there while focusing the microscope. Boy does methyline blue stain. So I flushed ethanol over it and put more nail varnish. Was about to start on the next finger when Joseph stole my varnish =(. So I gave up and actually did the practical, and finished with enough time to burn off scraps of varnish left on the leaves, and make a nice leafy stew. My nails are pretty and shiny on my left hand, yay!
Gabriel and others started saying I was becoming gay. I so am not! I'm like, totally, aware of my senses okay? Please leave me alone and let me go shopping.
So one day of questioning my sexuality and sanity, and here I am. Right at home, staring and my pretty nails. Damn.

2009-04-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

I'm scared.

Really really scared.

And probably no one really notices

But I'm really afraid

I tremble in class

I stone off in thought

I'm really really scared

I can't explain

I fear the next corner

I fear the next corridor

Paranoia?

Plain worries?

Unexplainable causes?

I don't know what

I don't care.

Get me out of this

Please

2009-04-04T23:27:00.000-07:00

Death Hurts.

It really does.

Forget the shows you see on TV

Forget the stories you read in books

The loss of someone important hurts

Hurts who?

I admit I do have not encountered the scenario yet

But whenever I see someone grieve

It hurts me too.

I'm confused

I'm shocked

But when I think what you must be feeling, I'm just sad

I'm sorry

The Refrain

2009-03-29T00:24:00.000-07:00

I will change.

I will become someone different.

For better or worse.

It's time to move to the next movement.

It's time the tempo changed.

It's time the chords are different.

You might not like me

I might not like me

Good luck, Merrill,

You'll need it.

2009-03-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

Keep Trying - Utada Hikaru

Because Hikki cosplays better than you.

2009-03-24T05:18:00.000-07:00

I'm waiting for the day the unicorns come

PEWPEWPEW

Anyone like a piece of PIE wi-

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Well Since we got that over with

UNICORN POWER!!!

KAPISH!

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Death to the non-believers!

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Would you like a slice of death with that?

Pie makes everyone happy

Stupidity meat

retaRED

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I really

Really

Need help

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Pewpew!

I'm still waiting for the unicorns

Have a nice life!

2009-03-09T04:56:00.000-07:00

Canvas by COOLON

This never fails to cheer me up

The song's nice

Makes me want to go out and smell them graffiti flowers

Nice tune, dunno bout the JRap though. Loved the visuals.
FLOWERS!!

Anyone besides me laugh whenever you look at them flail their arms around?

xD

2009-03-03T01:21:00.000-08:00

And that was probably how my day felt. Catastrophic.
Who's left in this world that can help me now?

Though even though it felt like hell
I'm still happy, oddly
Happy bout' my failures. Tests, band, life, friends

I'll wait for the day where an angel can scoop me up
And save me when I'm dying
But till then I'll live life
And remember the happiness I swore to keep

May my sadness wash away through the new day
And my peace rest in my heart.

Today

2009-02-25T03:20:00.001-08:00

Today I saw a rainbow.
Raw beauty of nature,
Distinct evidence of life,
Reminders of happiness

Today I hear people say
"There's nothing to see in Singapore"
"There's nothing to look forward in life"
"I can't do anything about the situation now"

Today I watched the sun set
Pure greetings from heaven
Basking glory from the cosmos
A usual sight,
But one still not fully appreciated.

Today I see people walking
Walking aimlessly
Walking unconsciously
Some so busy that they can't even walk at all

Today I heard the birds cry
Perfect symphonies of tranquility
Emblems of freedom and hope
Wonderful creations of life

Today I thought to myself

People are truly seeking happiness
People are truly seeking acceptance
People are truly seeking meaning

But why, then

Do they ignore the simple signs of life
Do they accept the cruel face of society
Do they conform to the shape society deems as "Perfect"

If people refuse to even look at the smallest things we have

Then what else can we look at?

So what if it has been discovered
So what if it is always there
So what if it will wait for you

When you don't stop to smell the roses
Sooner or later you'll forget the scent of it

When you don't even try to change
When you don't even try to think positive
When you don't even try to appreciate

How then, can you find happiness?

Today I saw an executive on the way home
She was busy talking on her phone
Busy arguing and planning with her colleagues
Busy trying to clench deals and make profit

Today I saw an old man at the void deck
He was just staring at the sunset
Watching the mothers feed their children
Staring at cars flashing by

But on his face played a smile

And there I think he found happiness

And there I think I found mine

WTFmoment

2009-02-23T04:28:00.000-08:00

Alright.
One step closer to sanity, three steps back from reality

I got a weird jive this morning, prolly because I woke up earlier just to go for the band performance thing.
By the way, if any of you noticed about our performance, we sucked badly. Playing a hymn. In chapel.

Anyway, got back to class, felt the sudden rush of sadistic energy, thus was able to stay awake in bio, and actually show some signs of being enthu.

Then I got this weird high from drinking my tei bing.

Which resulted in me "ice skating" on the classroom floor.
Which resulted in Mr Lim scolding me.
Which resulted in him trying it out too.

Right.

Got another high at band.
I actually practiced some parts.
Then went all dizzy and oxygen-deprived
And then went dizzy again from inhaling too much.

Came back and listened to The Extreme 3 times in a row
Then listened to The Cupcake Song

It's a screwed up world, my life is.

That's why I love it

Oh Sweet Suicide.

Happy days!

Catalyst

2009-02-19T06:29:00.000-08:00

Flowless life
Sorrowful laughter
Frenzied hastes

Catalyst

Destructive power
Dominion's wrath
Principality against trust

Reactant

Energy released
Hammer of thunder
Songs of fury

Resultant

Thundering earth
Splitting sky
Blood raining from the sky

He smiled

He always smiled

Yet this time was different
This time, he could smell the scent

Sweet scent

Yes, today would be a good day

Catalysts, Reactants, and Resultants

Hear his call

March forth the valley
Take down every wall

Open every heart

Dawn a new world
And set a new order

I Hate Myself

2009-02-18T06:15:00.000-08:00

Failed everything

Fell beyond expectations

F***ed everything up

Feel so depressed

Failed band, failed school, failed life, failed religion, failed trust, failed promise

I failed everything

I Hate Myself

Let us run around the little garden

2009-02-15T02:25:00.000-08:00

People are stupid

People eat things

Things are not stupid

So stupidity overpowers non-stupid things

-Relation to SMT life-

1)"Zomg! There's a huge creep there!"
"DON'T AGGRO THE THING"
-party wiped out-

2)"Zomg! Enemy team only has 4 people left!"
" Wait they have reinforcements!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

3)"Zomg! Item on the floor"
"Goddammit not again"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

4)"Zomg! Dungeon so noob!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

5)"Zomg! I'll try talking to the giant creep!"
" They can't be negotiated with!"
- monster spawns, repeat 1-

6)"Let us run around the little garden!"
"Don't! You'll aggro the monsters!"
-monster spawns, repeat 1-

Gosh, playing Online Games with idiots is just....
Too much to handle

Next time you try training a stupid Singaporean

Think again.

19 deaths in 30 minutes, if that's not a record,
I don't want to know what is.

Luckily it was no death penalty day.
...Zzzz

...

2009-02-14T01:28:00.000-08:00

I really, really hate Valentine's Day

I dunno why

Today just made me feel tired, band prac and all

Couldn't go out, couldn't socialize , couldn't go to church... etc

At least Darren Tay's night safari right lit up my day.
Who knew riding ontop of a speeding trolley heading to a concrete wall could be so fun
The only reason why I'm here right now is because Darren Tay owns.
Period

I hope we get night safari rides in band camp
At night
Pitch black
Speeding

The joy.

I hate Valentine's Day

Puppet Master

2009-02-11T00:58:00.001-08:00

Moving unwillingly

Bent over in odd shapes

Prancing around like fools

Controlled by him and him alone

No divine force
No unholy acts

Strings shine in the bright stage lights

Up, down, up, down

His arms move

In odd fashions, like conducting an orchestra

They get moved in his will
They stop at his will

No one has the right to refuse

No one has the right to comply

They wish his death,
They wish it hard

But all of them know inside,
That they cannot live without him

Motion comes from motion,
Forces act and react with other forces

But for them, their lives are predestined by that man
Their acts are irreversible, their minds incapable of any resistance
Soulless, yet living things

Under a soulful, yet dead master

Irony clashes with compassion
Compassion fails to exist in their world anyway

But still

They wish to live
They wish to be like him
They wish to be different from him

But at the end of the day
The strings fall
And the puppets are left dangling
Cold and wooden
Silent, yet they scream in their minds

That little old man slowly kisses each of the wooden things
And keeps them slowly in small, cozy boxes
He then walks away from the theater
Smiling, yet troubled with deep thought

Thus lives the life of a Puppet Master

Anger Management?

2009-02-09T05:44:00.001-08:00

One more step

And I swear I'd break out

The candies

And give your face

A big kiss

Which will probably damage your

Broken heart so badly

That the

Joy

Will start gushing out

And I'll

Hug

Your

Happy

Donkey

Home to where

The happiness is

I learnt about selective censorship today by masking words

I learn something -incredibly- -useful- everyday

2009-02-08T00:13:00.000-08:00

Happy things in life

Make the goddamn Nazis sad

As Such

VALEN-FING-TINES DAY

....In 6 days

This post served no purpose at all

Damn, I'm bored

Goodbye

2009-02-06T00:32:00.001-08:00

I saw her blood on my hands.
Red, like rubies... Pure, clean...

Her dead figure lies on the floor, 3 meters away from me
Slumped, oddly bent.
Her face frozen in terror
Her eyes, once brimming with fear, lie cold in her sockets

Her hair, soft and golden, stained with splashes of blood
Her tears, warm and sweet, still drop slowly from her now-dead face

Her hands clutch the small charm I gave her

I slowly walk towards her body
She should have known
She could have known

What was once happy memories come flooding into my mind
Running through the fields
Playing in the grass
Flying small kites
Feeding stray animals

I slowly lift her lifeless body
The bloody mess clings onto her body
Dripping off slowly
Little thick crystals of life death brings

I simply close her eyelids with my hands
And give her one last touch before I leave

Her face feels so cold
So, so cold

I can't think straight anymore

After all, they struck so fast

Her wound seemed to stop bleeding,
Yet the blood kept dripping from the side of her chest

Fatality

I still remember her smile
I still remember our promise

It was simple
To achieve our dreams
To set a bright future for ourselves
Work hard, earn money
Find ourselves both good spouses

After all, best friends stick forever, right?

My mind is in a daze

Something warm pools in my shoulder and head

Oh right, I've been shot too

I smile to myself

I fall to the floor, my vision getting blurred

Something red covers my left eye

I can't think anymore

There is no pain
No hurt

Memories of my life surprisingly leave from me

I cannot recall anything at all

I see her body right next to mine
I see the trail of my blood right next to hers

I smile once again

I feel cold
Cold, so cold

Yet I feel happy

Slowly, I fall asleep

Slowly, my eyes begin to close themselves

Cold, so cold
Sleepy, so sleepy

It's funny how it ends this way

I smile once again, and I am unable to process why

Why it feels so warm suddenly
Why my dreams visit me suddenly

Laying down there

Warm, so warm

It feels soothing

So soothing

Slowly I see her hand stretched out towards me
I reached out

And took it

Hello, I said

Goodbye

2009-02-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

Rough Day

Fell asleep approximately 22 times

Got scolded approximately 14 times for that

Got bored easier than usual, didn't wanna bother the scholars for their dictionaries to play Super Mario...

Got even more bored

... and hungry...

Went home, felt angsty on the bus. Tried to control violence towards the noise. Luckily the main causes went off the bus after Dover.

Now now, violence is bad

Went home, saw two people trying to display their love on the bus

"Public Display of Affection" was it?

Well they looked like complete eff-tards... Purposely moving right next to Gabriel and me (we were at the back seats) and started snuggling

Basically I laughed like a retard

Got dirty looks

Oh well,

Life goes on

Bored to death now by work

Tests tomorrow

...

I need my life back

2009-01-31T23:44:00.000-08:00

What.
The.
Hell.

Ich will - Rammstein

2009-01-31T01:42:00.001-08:00

Pride
Disgust
Jealousy
Lust
Hate
Anger
Fear
Sorrow
Misery

世界. 末端.

The wind whispers a sorrowful tune

The sky refuses to cry for you anymore

Droplets of water slowly trickling down

Drip, drip, drip

"It's going to be alright"

"It's just a seasonal thing"

Waves crashing down on the seabed

Lullabies softly playing

"Don't worry, We'll pull through this"

Playful leaves dance around the forest

Rain falling down like snow,

Wafting

Drifting

"We'll help"

Flowers swaying in the distance

Clouds trudging in the open sky

"It's going to be alright"

The sun moves slowly down the horizon

The moon sets down a soft glow

Fire softly swaying in the night

"We'll be here"

Dogs barks break the silence

Crickets sing a joyful tune

The cool breeze flows around your body

It all just...

Disappears.

Welt. Ende.

2009-01-22T23:39:00.001-08:00

Well... I'm bored again...

Tuition got canceled because Leonard "fell sick"...

Well, my teacher seems okay, even though she's like the principal of the centre...

Oh dear.

Anyway... Maybe I'll like share some songs...

Utada Hikaru - First Love

Lyrics
saigo no kisu wa
tabako no flavor ga shita
nigakute setsunai kaori

ashita no imagoro ni wa
anata wa doko ni iru n' darou
dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you are always gonna be my love
itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

tachidomaru jikan ga
ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru
wasuretaku nai koto bakari

ashita no imagoro ni wa
watashi wa kitto naite 'ru
anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou

you will always be inside my heart
itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
atarashii uta utaeru made

you are always gonna be my love
itsuka dare ka to mata koi ni ochitemo
i'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
ima wa mada kanashii love song
now and forever..

english translation:

the last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that i don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
i will probably be crying
i will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
now and forever...

Well, this is a nice song... Kinda reminds me of the sad sad memories I am not willing to disclose... Anyway, I prefer this version instead of the english version. Basically because the english ver. sounds like some Claymore-induced Utada trying to sing.

I like how the lyrics are simple, yet have a deep meaning. Nice tune, nice beat. However I think the thing that makes this song pull through well is Hikki's voice, considering there's nothing extraordinary about the song. Her voice seems give this unique sparkle to the song, which sets it apart from others, I guess.

Merrill

EXTREMELY LATE POSTS

2009-01-21T20:09:00.000-08:00

Goddammit.

So much stuff happened, and now I remember about my blog.

Well, I went for OEP

Found out about people's particular interests (*cough* loli *cough*)
Found out about... the Chinese hygiene standards
Found out about... stuff I would not like to go into detail (Like how 16 km can literally ruin your shoes)

I loved China

China made me love the food... Back home
China made me love the airlines... Back home
China made me love the traveling times... Back home

But more importantly

China made me love the people, theirs and ours

(*cough* loli *cough*)

Anyway, been doing more random crap

The norm.

Anime, Dota, Games, Going Out...

Been lying to Marcus Choi that I have a dead girlfriend (apologies to those affected and to the dead)
Apparently Marcus doesn't have a heart, insulting the dead and all

Sure She's fictional

But still... respect should be payed to the dead, even though you don't know its a lie

That...didn't make sense at all

I miss watching Eureka Seven already... the innocent, childish yet serious animes....

Did I mention I'm going insane?

Apparently IP does this to you

Now ain't that convenient

Merrill

Very Late Posts

2008-12-29T17:17:00.000-08:00

So I'm not feeding my blog enough.

I don't really like to post about the crap that happens everyday.

If you'd actually want me to do that,

I might as well make a template and a script to help me post

I'm not those type of people who likes to reiterate every single point that happens in my day

But, I might as well give it a try

Alright.

During the holidays, I did practically nothing at all.
Well, as compared to schooldays, I don't think its much of a big difference.
Sleeping late, waking up late,
Going for band practices, camps, sleepovers
Getting accepted, rejected,
Having fun, being bored,
Created stuff, destroyed even more
Watching anime, loving each detailed scene, yet hating them too
Playing dota, losing more matches than winning them
Getting closer to friends, drifting away from some
Running around, getting lost, hungry, tired
Ending up in odd places in another country
Losing loads of crap
Finding mysterious loads of crap
Laughing at others, laughing at myself too
Eating stuff, falling sick
Exploring the "wonders" of A maths before giving up 5 minutes later
Surfing the net for random stuff
Getting virus infections every 10 days
Sure, Practically Nothing at all.

Hurm, I guess that sums everything up.

Talk about peer pressure...

Merrill

.

2008-12-12T03:38:00.000-08:00

I notice how easy it is for tears to fall

You feel angry, sad, yet happy

Happy that one is alive,

One can cry,

One can be human.

You hold on to the thread that prevents you from going over the border.
From diminishing your inner being
From losing sense, peace, happiness
From being constantly drowned in agony, anger

But many times we slip, we fall
But that thread does not snap
It turns into a golden rope,
Your salvation out of the abyss you send yourself into

Some ignore this lifeline, and yield to the forces that work against them
Forever enslaved by non-existent fears, lies, grief
Still the rope lies there, open, ready

Its simple, actually

If you just keep everything to yourself, your anger, grief, happiness,
You yourself will soon be unable to see the way out
If you yourself are plagued by desires and the mentality of this cruel society
The darkness will soon cloud your vision
Rendering this beautiful world ,
gone.

Musing along

2008-12-05T00:32:00.000-08:00

Much to catch up upon.

Many highs and lows in life, no?

Band camp, band practices.

Hours and hours pilled up on stupid Dota matches (courtesy of nakao and gang)

Anime induced maddness, maddness induced spasms, spasm induced medical fees

People seem to rise and change

Serious people become more fun

Fun people tend to get more serious

The good in others start to show, yet the evil hearts start to grow too

Failures, successes
Happiness, sadness
Death, life
Creation, destruction
Love, lust
Pride, fear

The tears must keep rolling, be it happy or sad
The lives that we live must go on too right?
Sometimes I wonder, if reality could stop
The cruelty would be gone, but so will the love

Random actions of life
form us as a person
Nothing is a coincidence
And nothing is planned

For all I know, destiny is what you make it to be

more Randomness

2008-10-01T01:41:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya! (Haji? or something along those lines)

I have no idea why I'm doing this, but oh well, blogging before important days releases some of the stress, I think. Been surfing around my friend's blogs, and noticed that people really call me random. Aww, c'mon, wasn't it stated in the last post that only 10% of the crap was my fault, really. Really. Really, really really?

Really sounds like re-ally

Mmm, moving on, Random level has risen by 6% over the last 5 hours due to the high levels of stress and caffeine. So apparently, this post serves for no reason at all... Wow.

Okay, someone said to pick a topic and just crap about it.

Now lets see, how about the first try to be... Random
Random –adjective

proceeding, made, or occurring without definite aim, reason, or pattern: the random selection of numbers. (dictionary.com)
—Synonyms 1. haphazard, chance, fortuitous.

2. the act of killing someone for t3h puppies, similarily, the act of critisizing someone for being human, or any irregular and random motion of actions causing satirical irony and harm
Also see - 0wn3d, pwn3d, owned, pwned, lulz, lol, Sheep, sh33p, falling-off-building-to-check-if-ground-was-really-concrete, coffeecakes-on-uranium
Also see categories- we wasted 2 minutes of your time haha, youcan'tseethis and words-you-check-because-you-can't-spell-it (U.R. version)

So basically, I AM doing something random. Wow, really. Wow

The many faces of me

2008-09-30T01:35:00.000-07:00

Oddly, I think people are starting to think I have alter-egos.
I mean, like, of course i have alter egos. You guys are just slow.
If you havent nnoticed the sudden mood changes, or the sudden animal-fetish (whoops), you must either be blind, or just normal. I hope you're blind, cos' normal people are the ones who try to kill me first, i have no idea why. As I said, Normal People do the Craziest Things, which I think is true, looking at some of YOU out there.

Anyway, back to the topic, like the Many alter-egos of Me! (Or was it the many faces of me?)
1) Merrill - The Partially-subnormal guy who stones and goes hyper too
2) Tony - The guy in Merrill that wants to kill everyone
3) Shawn - The other guy who actually KILLS someone
4) Jason - Useless Alter-ego
5) Mepig - Basically an animal like thing , origin not known
6) MerJoke - something that drives that reaction to laugh so Tony finds an excuse to kill you
7) Goombaboi - alter ego of internet usernames
8) Jeremy - Useless Alter Ego
9) MeRRiLL - The Dark Side
10) M.E.R.R.I.L.L - The Stone Side

And the list goes on. Gosh why did i do that, I think its Goombaboi's fault. At least now i have 9 others to blame for something. Bored reactions cause retarded content. Save our souls by donating to the Merrill pocket money fund. Just come to me and drop a 2 dollar note in my face, I'm sure the gesture is much approved by 8 of me. Oh well

filling the void

2008-09-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

Yay an update!
Yay a daring update during exam period!
It's times like this that we should all take a break and go buy some nice and good chocolate *insert cheap product placement here*

Ahh crap. I Really Am Stressed Right Now...
hope you guys don't feel the same way!
All that's keeping me awake/alive is Techno and late-night anime
It's funny
I don't know why
Ahahahah
I think I'm crazy

Doubleposting! New Skill!!!11111!

2008-09-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

Wow, looks like i learnd to double postz. Actually itz quitee easy, you justz have to types very fast until some space is used up. so this post can be considered spam, since grammar, spell,punctuation and vocab checks are gone, but hey, spam's good right? I mean, there's this empty void in this blog...
Void/
void
void
void
Mmmm
void
Okay, so unless we have more random crap to fill the bottomless pit until U.R. is actually considered a large hole, we'll just keep spamming. Or i'll just keep spamming. but in this case as im referring to U.R as s third person i should probably use the word "we". Then in this case the words "because" "you" "read" "spam" "too" and "much" can be used to describe all you people reading until here. Mmm, dedication (useless dedication?) Man random Crap owns. Long live Bullshit. Forever

Dead or Alive?

2008-09-22T02:23:00.000-07:00

Blog's revived again (sorry it took so long, phoenix downs cost a lot of money) Lets hope it won't die... Again. Some moral support might be needed, blog's on low HP and MP status. Currently it is saving up for a magic item called "Flame attackz!! (ZOMFGZZZ)" to wage war on other blogs, but UltimatelyRandom is facing a serious lack of negative energy. To do that, it is currently trying to learn the arts of the NEEENJAAH! to attain maximum zen. Good Luck on it's perilous journey. Long live Bullshit.

2008-05-11T02:24:00.001-07:00

We're baaaaaack! Or so to say, I'm back, or maybe the blog's back, well whatever's back, its just... back... Yeah, so i I guess the fanfare isn't that important for this eh? Was there even anything to go away for? I can't remember. Wait I'm thinking along the line of exams, or maybe it's just a toilet break. Lunch maybe. I'm hungry... Oh what the heck, I'm not even sure anybody reads this anyway. Ah screw this, I'ma gonna get a sandwich

2008-04-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

Entertaiment! ( And I did'nt even order cable!)

Hi guys, I was bored, so I decided to put up some really random songs
Hope you enjoy

Kaeshite! Knee Socks (Lucky Star)

Do I need to explain further? It has a catchy tune, catchy melody... Furthermore, its about Knee Socks! KNEE SOCKS! (Frankly, what are those things?...)Anyway, it s extremely random, especially with the bloody captions here and there...

Hare Hare Yukai ( The Melanchony of Haruhi Suzumiya ED)

Hmm heres another one, plus, it has more dancing! Last one I guess, not alot of people like the songs I like, so here's some neutral ones. (Yes I know its in Japanese, but Jap music can be quite nice too) And thank you youtube for the embedded videos.

Staring...

2008-04-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

Have you ever stared out an open window,
See the stars in the sky...
Have you ever gazed out an open door,
And watched the moon go by?
And have you ever wondered, how it all began?
How the world became so still,
So different, so peaceful
Have you ever stared out an open window,
Just sitting there, staring...

2008-04-22T03:47:00.000-07:00

Hi all,

Well to start off, this is probably my first time doing a full-time blog, or actually to say, a blog that has not been deleted in the short attention span I have.
Anyway, just a word of information, these events listed in this blog are written in mind of the young state of mind I am in, and is purely written to the audiences around my age. Any crap written here is supposedly meant to be for fun only, and should not be taken seriously. Also, UltimatelyRandom advises users not to plug in 15 volt batteries on their tongues just to test if there is and energy left. We know it is very tempting, but skin grafts on that area is just... Well not very nice. And the good thing about blogs is that they require no batteries, so don't blame us for anything.

Goombaboi